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I scribbled this words on my diary when Alex came into my life…

Looking from a far, I see the calm, blue waters and those white things up there are clouds like puffy cotton candies. I used to stand on the white sand feeling its texture while enjoying the ambiance. My eyes were caught fascinated by waves but still, I was indecisive to touch the cold waters. My fears commanded me to step backward and return to my place. I was stupid back then. It took me years to stay there. And on my long wait, I met different kinds of people and observed how they handle emotions. We shared stories. I found out that each and everyone have something in common… that on the top of the human list, is a need to love and be loved.

I saw some people falling in love and I’m happy for them as well as with those who remain in the presence of staying in love with their partner and being strong with their relationship. Unfortunately, there are some who had fallen out of love and decided that it’s safer to remain on the shore than seeing yourself either by floating and nowhere to go or by drowning without anyone to rescue you. So that’s the frightening part of it, then I began to imagine all the worrying things that could happen but then again I realized that I’m scaring myself to death. I decided to move beyond my fears and just feel free!

But it’s not easy. Time taught me to move eventually my worries. And surprisingly, it turned out to be something enjoyable that I couldn’t believe its happening. Bit by bit, I find myself pulled by the shore as the blue, cold water hesitantly touches my toes. Eeee!!!… It gives me the shiver but I enjoy the feeling because my feet found its new direction. I learned to eliminate the fear of drowning because I know he’s at my side.

Whether you stay or go across the line, it’s always a choice.

And for me, I found a new meaning of being HAPPY. More to free-falling in the air, walking on clouds, the shiver thing is… the feeling of happily in love with him.

sabi nga ni mama,

the key to a successful relationship requires falling in love many times with the same person over and over again...

I will always fall for him, irregardless of his yabang mode switch on. Hopefully the kilig part won’t stop from here..

“laluvs, i love you..

I don’t blog much about you, but you know that when I say I love you,

it really comes straight from the heart..”

I am almost complete except for one thing and except for one person.

Happiness is a state of mind.

If you want to be happy, then be.

But sometimes, you can’t help but think of sadness as it paves through your mind

just to remind you that happiness is temporary.

There are some spaces between my mind and heart that needs some filling.

I don’t know where he is. who he is, but i hope when he comes, he does.

I do hope he fills the gap between.

Love is sometimes overrated. Love is sometimes misinterpreted.

Love comes in different forms. It sweeps you off your feet in many ways.

You cannot see it coming.

I need a man who stays even if i don’t ask him to.

A man who’ll make me laugh like there’s no tomorrow.

A man who makes me feel beautiful when i’m ugly.

A man who teaches me something that i’ll remember for life.

A man who helps me be “me”.

A man who’ll strike a conversation when I don’t feel like talking.

A man whose not afraid of what he wants.

I need a man who’ll see all of these in me and i’ll see these in him.

No more princes and princesses.

Just two people… us.

Who will feel the same way about each other.